No, I'm not part of the Builder's Society.

It's ridiculous. Today I visited my guidance office to find more scholarships to fill out since the state refuses to give any money to help pay for college unless your married or have a kid. Being a smart, intelligent, really involved in school activities student gets you a measly sum worth maybe a 1/16 (if that) of your college education.

So while I was browsing around with two fellow AP English kids, I noticed that I didn't qualify for over half of the scholarships in the cabinet. For one, your parents or grandparents or uncle or something had to work for Lebanon Bologna at some point and be active and whatever. WHAT THE HECK?! That's so specific! The other's-- you had to have kidney disease in your family; be visually impaired or handicapped; want to be a teacher or something; you can sing really well and plan to pursue that profession; going to college for entrepreneur major after already owning your business. It's absurd. There aren't any out there for ordinary students that are involved in things and have good grades. And the ones left-- all the super smart kids are snatching up and they are obviously more qualified.

what gives. I just need a way to help pay for college.

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If I had a Fox, I'd put him in a Box.

IF
I had more time in a day then I'd post everyday.
BUT
With musical, school, homework, college papers, and being sick-- I run out of time rather quickly.
I'm sorry.

BYE.

Oh the facts.

I have nothing else to post. So here's 15 random things about me. Enjoy. Or not. I don't care =]

1. My favorite animals are lemurs and koala bears. AND if I had to choose to be any animal, it's probably be a koala bear. They sleep for about 20 hours a day. The other four they eat eucalyptus leaves. And the reason why they're so tired and sleep all the time is because the eucalyptus leaves hardly have any nutrients to give them energy-- it's a vicious cycle that I'm pretty sure I'd be okay with.

2. I dye my hair red tones because it makes my eyes greener all the time and I love having amazingly green eyes.

3. I really don't like to watch television but I'd be lying if I told you that I don't fill my free time with crap on MTV and VH1.

4. I'm pretty sure I will always love kiddie movies over any other movie that comes out. Madagascar is my all time favorite, with Lion King being a close 2nd, if not a 1.5. And I rather go see movies such as Horton Hears a Who in theaters than scary movies like Shutter.

5. My favorite colors are green, orange, and yellow. And I know that most people think they look horrible together-- but I like it.

6. I'm currently growing my hair out for Locks of Love, which I'm pretty sure not many people know.

7. I cannot live without Burt's Beeswax chap stick. Pretty much, I refuse to use anything else and my day is not a good one if I don't have my Burt's. It's basically a security blanket.

8. Math is the worst subject on the face of the earth. And I'm pretty sure I could be taking the easiest math class possible and I'd still be confused as hell. Yep. I hate math.

9. Secretly, I want my septum pierced. With a tiny tiny tiny curved barbell, i think it'd be really cute. But all my friends and family would disown me. And getting a job would be kind of hard.

10. I have one tattoo already, and I plan on getting another one, maybe two before I head to college in August.

11. I don't drink alcohol at all. And it baffled me today, while in my physics class to hear a fellow classmate say "yeah we're all going to be fucked up the next day after our senior trip anyway. hang overs all over the place." My friends and I are like, "unless you don't drink." The girls response was, "oh, I never thought of that." WHAT!? What do you mean you haven't thought of that?! Not everyone in high school drinks for Pete's sake.

12. I want to be a dancer. I always have. And doing a little bit of dance in the musical has really made me want to do it. I don't know what kind. I just want to dance.

13. Girls are not good best friends. Boys are the way to go. And I love all 10 or so of mine =]

14. Music is my entire life. No really it is. I'm in our chorus, chorale, and chamber choir. I was in the color guard for the marching band, and I own over 200 Cd's + the random songs I download onto my computer. I live breathe and eat music, basically.

15. I plan on becoming an International Business major as of right now. I'll probably switch over to Business Management/ Administration with a minor in Entrepreneurship. But we'll see.

That's it. BYE!

You would kill for this (just a little bit)

Pretty much, I'm still sore and exhausted and needing more sleep; sadly, I'm normally recuperated by now- but I'm not. You may be asking, "why are you so exhausted and sore and sleep deprived?!" Well, my friends, I was at one of my best friends parties. And you might be thinking- no big deal, you were with a bunch of your girl doing...girl things. No such thing. I was the only girl at party with 11 boys. And my gosh, it was the best sleepover party I have ever been to.

Of course, we're all "nerds," right? We can't have fun. But whatever. We had cases of Mountain Dew and Sunkist (mhm, best drink choices around!) and various chips and jelly beans. Some boys played Rock Band, others Smash Brothers, others VS, and the couple of us left either wrestled or talked for awhile. It was a great time. I have bruises and I'm sure the boys do too. Around 1am, we took a walk up the mountain. (My friend's house is about half way up a mountain.) It was about a 10 or so minute walk up since we decided to make our own path up, but on the way down we used the actual path. We stayed up playing Truth or Dare and Would You Rather (and you can only imagine how that went with 11 boys and one girl.) But it was a blast. I get treated like I'm one of the boys, but with some more respect since I am a girl.

It was my first time staying with all of them all night and only falling asleep around 6am. And we hit that point around 4am where everything is hilarious and you have insane amounts of energy flowing through your body. I danced around on the wrestling mat to the crazy frog song and sandstorm with a fellow friend. But it was so fun and nice. All the boys acted completely like boys, like how they would when a girl isn't there. And I still completely love those boys.

Anyway, here are some pictures. Don't try to interpret them.
oh and HAPPY ZOMBIE JESUS DAY!

Senior's "Skip" + Tilly & the Wall

So Today was Senior Skip day. The day that every senior is excited for; all banding together and not showing up to school- like it means something. But this one was ill-planned and the majority of seniors showed up to school. With such activities like a softball scrimmage, baseball game, girls soccer game, tennis match, and musical practices that require a student to be in school all day, many seniors couldn't afford to miss. So instead I showed up on time, tired and cranky, and handed in a note so that I could leave at 10:45 with two guy friends and met up with a college friend. It was a joke of a day; journalism, physics (where I did nothing productive or involving physics), a math quiz, and a study hall-- then Pizza Hut Buffet, an excursion to get a birthday present, and a nap later on. Then I headed to my college class, which wasn't what I wanted to be doing but hey- I'll roll with the punches.

Anyway, last night I went to a show in Philly with my best friend Nicole. My dad drove us down because I hate driving in cities. We got lost ...twice trying to find the First Unitarian Church and finally gave up and parked and followed the mass of "indie" dressed kids. Finally we found it and waited outside in the rain for the doors to open at 8pm. After the opened, the first band The Bee Team played for about an hour. And they were good- but not what I wanted. Then Capgun Coup came on and Nicole and I enjoyed them a little more than the previous band-- we were just getting warmed up and antsy for one of our favorite bands to take the stage. Suddenly Salt and Pepper's "Push It" came on and balloons began to float through the air. Nicole and I were so excited. Four songs later Tilly and the Wall graced us with their presence on the stage. They were amazing and sounded exactly how they do on their CD's. They played every single one of my favorite songs. It was fantastic.

Cap & Gown

I graduate in 83 days.

Well, I guess it might change if our teachers strike, again. (maybe, i don't know, I've heard so many things.) But honestly, I don't want to go through the whole graduation ceremony. I don't want to sit through the possibly very boring speeches given by our Valedictorian and our Salutatorian. I don't want to have to fight back tears because I'm overly emotional. And I sure as hell don't want to sing with the chorale kids because our administration thinks that's cool. Frankly, I just want to walk on stage, get my diploma, shake hands with Dr. Kepler and take a cool picture. That's it. Plain and simple. But our school doesn't let you do that. And frankly, I've weighed the option of just not attending my graduation. But I don't think my parents would let me do that. So I'm stuck between a hard place and a rock. Maybe I'll just take a coloring book on stage and do that during speeches...hmm.....

Complaining about Over- Complainers

I am so overly sick of people complaining. And I know I do it too; we all do. But some people are just over the top. They complain about EVERYTHING, and whine too. And it's getting to be really bad at this time of year with musical and everything. Everyone is stressed, tired, sick and cranky. What a bad combination of people. If one little thing goes wrong, it causes a huge commotion and everyone feels the need to complain about it. It's stupid and I'm done. 

I have no reason to sit there and listen to a girl complain about her period. That's ridiculous. Every girl gets one, so shut up and deal with it. And how you look isn't the biggest thing that a girl should worry about-- it's a musical practice where they'll be dancing! And I'm sick of everyone being consumed by other people's relationships and how it's the biggest deal if this person is dating that person. It's there business and not yours, and I'm pretty sure it's not affecting the way you live your life, so shut up and get over it. And I know I'm full of complaints right now but  honestly, I'm pretty sure the average person (not a high school girl) can understand where I'm coming from. I realize I am a high school girl, but I'd like to consider myself not the "typical" high school girl ( I do hang out with mainly boys!) And one thing is for sure- something has to give or else I'm going to be driving insanity.

For the Kids (not Kill)

Two weekends ago (Feb. 29 into Mar. 1st), my high school held it's annual Four Diamonds Thon. About 250 students, staff, and parents stayed up from 7 pm until 7 am raising money and fighting for a cure for the kids. Honestly, I was exhausted and sick and didn't feel good, but I stayed the whole night to show my support for young kids and their families struggling to fight cancer.

The idea of being there for a cause and a reason seemed to slip the minds of most of my high school colleagues. A competition to win the Thon War was more important. I mean, sure, we all cared who got the most points, who was winning, and getting the "Class of 20_ _" plate on the Thon War plack. But what's ridiculous is the fact that some kids became so consumed with the possibility of winning the title that they forgot what they were fighting for; the kids!

I thought it was ridiculous when so many kids were so consumed on how well their fellow classmates were doing at "plinko" and what competitions they were winning. It became a war between the Juniors and Seniors and that's all that anyone cared about- who was in the lead and who might win. And sure, I put in my two cents and wanted to win, but I didn't let it consume me or destroy my whole reasoning on why I was pushing myself to stay there even though I knew I would highly regret for the next four days. (I did get horribly sick and stayed home from school for two days and felt like crap, but hey- it happens.)

I guess just what bothers me about this whole situation doesn't specifically pertain to high schools. People anywhere and everyone will lose the concept and motivation to win and make it completely about themselves and their reputation. It's ridiculous. It was for the Kids, not the Kill or the Win.