Thursday, February 28, 2008

Clique it... or ticket

Lately, the cliques in my school have been more than annoying. And like most high schools, you have the group of "jocks," the "music hall nerds," the group of "girl best friends forever" and then you have the random groups of people with no name but you know they're always together and always hanging out. And really, I'd like to think of myself as being someone that can float anywhere and hang out with anyone. But lately, I'm coming to realize- this is not the case. Apparently, I'm part of the band nerds, or more commonly referred to: the music hall nerds. And after a recent "all-nighter" with 3 "music hall nerds" and a "jock" this became ever so prevalent and caught my attention.

Jocks and music hall nerds can't hang out. If this does happen, it causes the jocks to stand in the middle of the hallway and scream that one of their own hung out with a "bandie." Now this jock can no longer even consider hanging out with said bandies, and therefore cannot even consider about liking one of them. To me, this is ludicrous. Why can't one person hang out with another? Why does their "status" in the school so much? Are jocks really that much better to hang than the band nerds?

I guess this relates back to my previous entry; band nerds are concerned about their grades while the jocks are out there to have some fun- to live care free. So I guess "band nerds" can't have fun, or so it seems that's what the rest of the cliques think.














Here's the deal, I don't think it's so much that I don't like the jocks, I just rather not hang out with well, idiots. The fact of the matter is I can have fun without peeing on someones saran- wrapped car, yet the jocks find this fun, amusing, and spend their free time doing stupid shit. I guess this makes me and all my friends (who feel the same way) losers and we don't know how to have fun. But you know, that happens and I'm okay with that and I'm pretty sure my friends feel the same way.

What bugs me most is that people can't admit that cliques are a problem at ACHS or that they even exist. Obviously they do and obviously it's hindering the atmosphere of our high school.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

A- typical, "A" student

I pride myself on not being the "A-typical" high school senior. I don't go to parties and get drunk- or drink at all. I don't slack off on homework completely and let my grades plummet just because I've been accepted to college. I don't hang out with my friends every single night until 11 and feel completely drained the next day. Basically, I'm not living life to the fullest extent like it seems everyone around me is.

But then again, I've never lead that type of life.

I'm the type of girl that is happy just hanging out at someones house watching a movie and drinking Mountain Dew (the beverage of choice between all my friends) and munching on some popcorn.I'm normally the only girl with up to 10 other boys, something that I'm used to. (After about 5 years of it, I'm basically "one of the guys." I wouldn't have it any other way.) Sure we get out of control and partake in "half-ton challenges" and other crazy things. But to everyone at school, we're not normal, we're not cool and we're certainly not worth including.














And to be honest, I'm okay with that. I'm okay with walking down the hallway and being called a "band nerd." And I'm definitely okay with not being called normal. But after going through 3 and half years of high school, I'm wondering where my place in life really is and how I'm going to be accepted at college. Being about four hours away from home in a totally new environment is mind-boggling at this point.



As my life is slowing being enveloped by our high school musical practices, I'm finding less and less time for myself and for my friends. And it's bothering me. We only have 6 months left together before we all head our separate ways and we're hardly EVER enjoying ourselves. That also means I have 6 months left to define myself and figure out who on earth I really am and where I want to be.

So here's to high school, finding myself, and trying to have the time of my life all at the same time.